D&C scheduled

So, after my numbers never got about 100, Dr. Heard wanted me to stop all of my Progesterone and Lovenox. Allison said if I don't start bleeding in a week to call them and they would redraw my labs. Well, I didn't so I called and went in for labs the next day. The crazy thing is that my HCG went from 95 to 878!!! There was a glimmer of hope. Then 2 days later I went in for an u/s and more labs. There was a sac measuring 2 weeks behind and my labs went to 1499. More hope!!! We went to Louisiana and watch LSU beat Alabama and went back to the doctor Monday morning. I was so nervous about this appt because I knew it would be the make or break appt. The sac measured exactly the same as it did on Friday. Dr. Heard said he wanted to see my HCG at least 3000 and if it didn't then we needed to start talking about a D&C again. I got a call that afternoon from Allison that my HCG only went to 2262. We scheduled my D&C for Friday, November 12th.

I'm ok, but sad. I never let myself get excited about this pregnancy and I hate that. I knew from the beginning that this was a possibility, but it never really hits you until they say those words..."we need to schedule a D&C."

Just once I would like to check in to the hospital and come out with a baby instead of an empty inside.