Monday, March 28, 2011
March of Dimes
I am the team captain for the Texas Children's Health Center in Sugar Land. I’m walking for stronger, healthier babies! Join me in March for Babies and help prevent serious problems like premature birth and birth defects.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Injection Anxiety and Sadness...
The week of my EDD of our first baby and the weeks leading up to it has been really hard. I've been getting things in the mail, and email for 1st birthday parties, toys and things for "my toddler", etc. When I'm around kids and seeing how happy they are and how much fun they're having, it kills me. I just imagine us having a 1 year old and watching her crawling around and learning to walk, planning her first birthday, taking her to the rodeo, and playing outside in this beautiful weather we've been having. Instead, we have empty arms and hearts and all I can do is dream.
The week of my EDD, I was also taught how to draw up and inject medication (like I didn't already know how) to "increase my chances" of having a baby. I did one injection and regretted it immediately. I prayed about it, thought about it, talked to many people about it. I even paged my doctor on the weekend to talk to him about it. In the end, it was my decision. I decided, it was a huge step and if I wasn't 100% about it, and if I was having so many doubts, I knew it wasn't the right thing to do...right now.
I did order one of the medications I would take during the cycle (there are 3). The co-pay for a 10 day supply was $150!!! So, it's nothing to take lightly. If I'm going to do it, my mind has to be right because I don't want to be doing this for many months and feel like I'm wasting money.
I decided to stop taking my temperature every morning and just take the next few months as "whatever happens" months. If trying not to stress about it doesn't work, then we'll start talking injections again.
Well, the first month I stop taking my temps and not stressing about it, seems to have turned in to an anovulatory cycle (not ovulating). Uggghhhh!!! I talked to my doctor about it, who didn't seem too concerned, and said, "some people don't ovulate every month." I did ask him about my weight and if that could be affecting my cycles. He said, "Yes." So, my goal is to wake up early, get on the treadmill, watch what I eat, and eat healthier.
The week of my EDD, I was also taught how to draw up and inject medication (like I didn't already know how) to "increase my chances" of having a baby. I did one injection and regretted it immediately. I prayed about it, thought about it, talked to many people about it. I even paged my doctor on the weekend to talk to him about it. In the end, it was my decision. I decided, it was a huge step and if I wasn't 100% about it, and if I was having so many doubts, I knew it wasn't the right thing to do...right now.
I did order one of the medications I would take during the cycle (there are 3). The co-pay for a 10 day supply was $150!!! So, it's nothing to take lightly. If I'm going to do it, my mind has to be right because I don't want to be doing this for many months and feel like I'm wasting money.
I decided to stop taking my temperature every morning and just take the next few months as "whatever happens" months. If trying not to stress about it doesn't work, then we'll start talking injections again.
Well, the first month I stop taking my temps and not stressing about it, seems to have turned in to an anovulatory cycle (not ovulating). Uggghhhh!!! I talked to my doctor about it, who didn't seem too concerned, and said, "some people don't ovulate every month." I did ask him about my weight and if that could be affecting my cycles. He said, "Yes." So, my goal is to wake up early, get on the treadmill, watch what I eat, and eat healthier.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
